Exhausted. That’s the best way to describe the last four weeks.
For the nine months leading up to Ashleigh’s arrival, our life was about getting prepared. And now she is here. Yes, I felt ready. Yes, I slept in, a lot. And yes, I thought I had it all figured out. But I think it’s safe to say I was wrong. Not that I realize how unprepared I was, I just don’t think you can be fully prepared for parenting. And you definitely can’t be prepared for the lack of sleep!
As I reflect on the last month, there has been a lot of change. Sleep has been traded for laps around the house, Sports Center for dirty diapers, and meal time (and Jeopardy) has been replaced by baths and crying fits.
But is it all worth it? I’d say so…
I’ve realized quickly that there’s a lot I would like to be able to look back on from our daily routines; or lack thereof. When I originally decided I wanted to start writing, I thought it would be to record a few funny stories that happened while I watched Ashleigh unsupervised; you know, without my wife around. But I am quickly realizing that this is a great way to document ALL of the exciting things going on. And it’s not compulsory to the point where I NEED other people to read what I am writing, rather, I have an awful memory, and I want to be able to look back on these precious times and cherish all the wonderful moments we have raising our daughter.
In some ways, it reminds me of the book The Last Lecture written by Randy Pausch. Pausch was a professor at Carnegie Mellon University and is famous for a Lecture he gave during the final days of his battle with cancer. His talk, which lead to the book, was modeled after a series of lectures where the speakers were asked to think about what mattered most to them and then give a hypothetical final talk. Pausch chose the topic of “How to Achieve Your Dreams”. This was his chance to impart lasting wisdom on the world. And during his talk, he mentioned that there was a head fake involved in that he was not really talking about how to achieve your dreams, rather, he was giving a lesson on how to live life. He then went on to ask “Did you figure out the second head fake? This talk’s not for you. It’s for my kids.” What a legacy for a man to leave to his three young children – all the wisdom he can think to impart on them, packaged neatly in a book for them to be able to read and feel close to their father whenever they need it.
As I share stories with you about Ashleigh, I hope one day I will get to share them with her too.